Red Pencil Diaries

The holidays threw me for a loop. visited tons of family… gave tons of presents… got some great presents. (BTW dave’’s granny gave me the same bizarre gift that included a can of aerosole hairspray—even though I’‘ve told her that aerosole hairspray gives me migraines—but it’’s the thought that counts… and i digress). On Christmas day I started to feel icky. And then the next day it really hit: stomach virus. I was so sick! I have actually pulled muscles in my chest from hurling. (sorry. TMI… but I had to say it!) and i was in bed/house bound for days… today was the first day i got out of the house! and now dave has the ick…

however we did manage to go see LOTR Two Towers today before he got ill. It rocked!

also, i finished my book for the book club: The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold. i will say that i did like it. and i recommend it. Here is also a list of the next books we will be reading this year:

Interesting list… I’‘ll let you know how it turns out.

So, one of the editors that I edit for (yeah, follow me here…) resigned and is leaving the company. Wish it was me. So many people here are ready to throw in the towel. I feel trapped and like there is nothing left for me. No where to move in the company. No way to change the things that are broken. No one on my side. No more fun.

And I miss being creative. I need an outlet. I’‘ve been trying to write some on my own. I wrote a couple of short stories. Made some notes. But I need to do something for real. I am gonna try to write something and get it published. Maybe an article for a magazine. Something! I need a start. Something to get me motivated.

But my whole attitude about work is at an all time low. I can’‘t seem to turn it around. I really really need a new career. Something to spark my excitement. Something to get me to enjoy waking up in the morning. I hope I find it soon.

Cancer
June 21 – July 22
“You and a potential partner share some deep values in common. This bonding could bring about a deeper, though unspoken, commitment.”

Why do I read these things? I guess to create my own meaning from the vague ideas they convey. Sometimes they make sense. But sometimes I think “hey, I could do that. I think I’‘ll start writing my own daily horoscopes. Couldn’‘t be that difficult. Right?”

Anyone need an amateur horoscope writer? I’‘ve also wondered how I could become the writer for those quotes inside the Dove chocolates wrappers. How can I score that gig? I need to research that. I would be so perfect for it!

While it can be easy for some to wallow in the curse of a project and lose a proactive and positive mindset can pollute the project team and its chances to turn the project around and make it a success.

I have no idea what this author was on when he wrote this sentence. But maybe I could use some. I’‘m having a case of the Mondays on Tuesday. And can it get any colder in my office? My hands are frozen. Decided not to attend the 410K during difficult market conditions meeting. I can’‘t think of any major revelations they could share. And plus, they aren’‘t gonna give me back the money I lost…

I think I need a break. Morale is at an all time low. And even the fact that it is the holiday season hasn’‘t helped me feel better. Instead, I feel worse…

So, i’‘m at work. And i need to look up some info on a book. So i go to Amazon and i put in the book name and it searches and finds it. Then i scroll down the page and i notice this one part that says: “Customers who wear clothes also shop for:” What the hell? The first item on the list is for Clean Underwear from Amazon’’s Target Store. Made me laugh. And people who shop for food also buy: milk and bread. Whatever!

My grandfather passed away last Thursday morning. He was 85 (almost 86). He’‘d been sick and in the hospital and nursing home for many months. But it was still hard to take. I remember him playing the ukelele and singing songs to us when we were kids. He was in a band when he was in WWII and sang in quartets during different parts of his life. He never really spoke much about the war to us, but at the funeral, I was surprised to learn that 85% of his unit was either killed or taken prisoner in WWII. I guess he didn’‘t like to think about that, much less share the details with us. I’‘ll miss him….

Dave and I went to see the latest Bond flick, Die Another Day, last night. It so rocked. Not only was Pierce Brosnan totally hot, there were awesome effects and so many cool fight/chase scenes. I do so love James Bond movies. And this is one of my favorites, if not my new favorite. But I’‘m a sucker for action and crazy plots. This one included hover craft, diamonds, dna changing, invisible cars, and ice hotels. Too cool. LOL

Go see it.

Oh yeah, and now I want an Aston Martin like the one in the movie. Forget the new T-bird. However, having the convertible Jaguar XKR in Iceland was a complete joke.