Red Pencil Diaries

Okay. This cracks me up. A member of the National Guard legally changed his name to Optimus Prime. They even had to change his name on his uniforms. And now he’’s heading off to the middle east to fight. I’‘m just glad we have at least one of the “transformers” on our side. I’‘ll sleep better at night just knowing this.

Yesterday Dave accepted a job with a new company. Day work. Better pay. Good benefits. We’‘re VERY excited. And then this morning, I had an ultrasound and it showed that I had a couple of very good eggs ready. So I also got my HCG shot today. And insemination will be tomorrow, A.M. So far, so good. I’‘m a bit scared to be too happy about things. Guess I’‘m skittish because of all the bad luck we’‘ve had lately. But at least right now I’‘m smiling.

Well… here I am back at work. I’‘ve been off for the past couple of days because my grandfather died.

And now the country is at war. Or nearing war. I’‘m still confused about the terminology. I’‘ve not been in touch with much that’’s gone on for a few days. I guess I should read the paper more.

I’‘m just in sort of a mellow mood now. I’‘m not upset. Not really excited about anything. I’‘m just sort of here. Maybe I’‘ll get back into the swing of things by the weekend. At least I hope I will.

Negative: 1 a : marked by denial, prohibition, or refusal. denoting the absence or the contradictory of something. 2 a : lacking positive qualities… 5 a : not affirming the presence of the organism or condition in question.

Yep. The tests were negative. Guess we just try again. I’‘ll keep you posted.

Well. So far so good. I will take the official test tomorrow morning to see if the insemination worked. I haven’‘t decided if I will post the results yet or not. I mean, I know I’‘ve been reporting on the progress for so long. But part of me is skeptical about whether it would be good to tell the world so early even if things go well. But if I get a big negative, I guess you’‘ll hear about it.

I’‘m excited and full of dread at the same time. I want to know the results. But I’‘m also so scared of failure. So scared to see that negative test result again. I’‘ve taken so many tests that were negative. I just wanna see a positive…

On a separate note: I have to go to a four hour long meeting tomorrow about “making our content better.” I’‘m not sure how this is going to go. But I will say I’‘m NOT looking forward to it. NOT.

For something fun, try this link that Tony sent me. The dancing banana cracks me up.

Here’’s one from one of my better authors. He just seems to be confused about a word:

“This problem occurs because the spring isn’t excerpting enough force on the pickup roller to prevent more than one piece of paper from being grabbed at a time.”

My friend Tony just sent me the link to this game called Invisibles. They take the faces and hands out of movie scenes, and you have to identify the movie from the clothing and background. It’’s kinda cool. But still damn hard to do.

Been trying to not go insane. I have 6 days left until I find out if the insemination worked. But now I’‘m wondering what I’‘ll do then. I am sure I’‘d be over-excited if it did work, but I’‘d probably want to wait until the doctor confirmed anything until I made any public announcements. However, I’‘ve been telling so many people about it that I’‘m sure people will ask me… I’‘m kind of torn. Need to think about it some more. Then again, maybe I don’‘t… it all just stresses me out.