Red Pencil Diaries

Dave and I have been trying to compile a complete list of what was stolen from our home. I had mentioned some of my clothes before, but now, we’‘ve discovered that it was more than just a few items. They stole all of my blue jeans! Even the cropped ones. And about 8 pair of my shoes. Most of them my favorites—ones that can’‘t really be replaced b/c they were unique or purchased a year or more ago. Oh, and I had most of my maternity clothes in a clear tote bag in the closet—which they also stole. Probably not realizing they were all maternity clothes. But now, I have only three pair of maternity shorts and about four shirts—two of them tank tops. So if I do manage to take this pregnancy into September or October, I’‘ll have nothing to wear.

We’‘ve also discovered that they took a few more power tools and yard tools, AND our shop push broom. WTF? A broom? Why the broom?

We’‘ve given up all hope of trying to figure these thieves out. Our list for the insurance company is a strange one, that’’s for sure. I hope it gives someone a chuckle. I mean, we’‘ve had to laugh just so we won’‘t cry…

One year ago today, we lost our baby girl Willa. I’‘m not going to dwell on this, or be too sad about it. I just need to remember her. Remember how tiny she was. How devestated we were. But also, how amazing it is that we are able to try again and get so far along with this second pregnancy. Even though she touched our lives only briefly, we will always miss our angel Willa Michele.

Well, we forgot to post about this b/c so much has happened in the past few days. If you read my previous entry, you’‘ll know that I’‘m home now. But on Saturday evening at some time, while Dave was in the hospital staying with me, some stupid freekin bastards broke into our house. They got in through the sliding glass door and exited through the garage. Luckily, they didn’‘t take too much stuff… just most of Dave’’s power tools, a couple of air conditioners, Dave’’s modded PS2 and the games and controllers, various other small tools, a few bottles of wine from the wine rack and OH YEAH….. SOME OF MY CLOTHES AND SHOES.

WTF???? The cops think maybe it was teenagers with probably a girl with them. Dave found some hangers and ONE of my skechers at the bottom of the stairs with a pair of my socks in it. WTF??? Who steals someone’’s shoes and USED SOCKS?? I mean, they were clean and all, but geez. And since I’‘m on bedrest, I can’‘t just go and peruse my walk in closet and dresser and see exactly what was stolen (besides, I have too many clothes and I just don’‘t think I’‘ll know what’’s gone until one day when I want to wear it again). This whole thing just freaking sucks ass. As if me being in the hospital wasn’‘t bad enough???

Oh yeah, Pebbles was in the laundry room behind the baby gate. We’‘re thinking she must have barked a lot or something b/c apparently, the people never made it past her to get to the office. Which was good. But we’‘re still scared that they saw a bunch of stuff and might come back. Pebbles has had the run of the house for a couple of days… I call her “Pebby on guard.” And Dave took off on Monday and changed the locks and fixed our security system and changed our bank accounts and stuff. We’‘re thankful that it wasn’‘t worse than it was. But as I said, it still sucks ass.

Well. My drs. came back from vacation. And I had an ultrasound on Monday. My cervix hadn’‘t changed much (big relief) and…. the baby is measuring BIG. His arms and legs and head are measuring at about 31 weeks, and overall (average) he is measuring about 29 weeks and 3 days. I’‘m only 27 weeks right now, so this is just amazing. The dr. said he weighs around 3 lbs. now.

So last night, the drs. let me come home. I was super excited. I can’‘t tell you how it feels to be back in my own bed and with my laptop and Pebbles and Dave around. Although, Dave is at work right now. My sister is coming by each day to help take care of me while he’’s working.

The drs. still say I’‘ll probably have this baby early, but for now, we can’‘t predict when. We’‘re just trying to get as far along as we can. I’‘m just really considering this whole pregnancy a miracle. And I can’‘t tell you how amazing Dave has been through all of this so far. He’’s just wonderful.

Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers…

Kim

Well, today marks the 100 days to go. So far I have been in the hospital for 4 weeks. Its still pretty much sucking ass, but at least I have bathroom and shower privledges, and can go outside for 15 mintues in a wheelchair. Yesterday, Dave and Bud took me outside for the first time since I have been here. It was very odd to feel the wind, and I had to squint and shut my eyes because the sun was so bright. It almost didn’‘t feel real. I guess being in the same room for that long is like a sensory deprivation chamber. I feel like I almost have forgotten what it is like to walk around outside. I miss my car, I miss shopping, I miss eating out, but most of all I miss being able to do whatever I feel like doing. Even if that is just walking out to the mailbox.I know that being here and staying in bed is the best thing that I can do for my baby, though. He is really getting big, Dave and I can watch my stomach move as he is moving and kicking and we can really feel him moving on the outside. In two weeks I will be 28 weeks along and if all goes well, they will let me go home then, but still on bedrest. Keep hoping and praying, so far so good.